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Tell Me What You See
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Imagine being told that you're worthless, unwanted, unneeded, untalented, unlovely and unloved.
Imagine shunning every mirror, pond, shadow...any representation of your face, body or image.
Imagine being repressed from any semblance of normal, average or healthy.
Imagine being forbidden to strive for anything less than extreme.
Now... imagine being made to think, feel, hear and live all of these things by your own hand.

That is the life of an eating disorder.

Many people confuse eating disorders with not wanting to eat.
Sure that's a part of it. But it is a small part of not being able to be... not being able to accept... not being able to love yourself.
It is a symptom of denial.
It is a basic element of well-being that you can not permit yourself to enjoy or even taste of at the risk of sinking to "average."

I began developing my eating disorder... well... who knows when.
Appearance was always important to me.
Performance was always important to me.

It had to be a 99% or above... it had to be perfect-I had to be perfect.

At the age of 13 I experimented with exercise... 2, 3, 4 hours a day.
At 14, I began purging my meals.
By the age of 15 I had starved 45 pounds from my 5 foot 5 inch frame.
I was institutionalized for three months.

There, my body began healing... and my mind made progress... but I was still a slave to that fear of "normal."

Since then... I have been better.
I have maintained a stable weight. I have maintained stable relationships and friendships.
I am married.

But everyday, I still fear mirrors.
I haven't been on a scale in years... and I dread the day when my clothes size will change.

And everyday I pray. I cry out to my God for healing... for these demons in my head to be stripped away and replaced with a desire for health, for healing and a desire to love this temple that he created in me.

Everyday I seek understanding and die a little when I can't find a soul that can echo or at least accept my torment.

And then... I listen to the words of women... young, older, in between... who have lived the life I have lived and sometimes still live.
I hear that they understand and they have been there, are there... and have left that place.
I hear recovery and health... I hear freedom.

It's all within the tracks, the songs, the instruments and the words on "Tell Me What You See."

This honest look at life with an eating disorder is my tool that I play for my husband when I can't explain why I don't want him to touch me.
I play it for my mother when I can't explain why I can't give up my workouts.

I play it for myself when I don't know what else to pray to God.

Eating disorders are all-consuming, selfish, destructive and devastating diseases.
They are physical, psychological, emotional and spiritual battlefields that have claimed too many lives.
The statistics are scary... 1 in 10 young women between 15 and 25 will deal with anorexia. 1 in 4 will battle bulimia.

The disease is rampant. It's infectious.
Our culture has been infused with images of extreme-models, actresses... stick figures that are labeled as 'beautiful' and 'good.'

Churches don't know what to say. How can a creature created in the image of God walk away from that truth?
How is one who is so divinely loved feel so unlovable?

When language fails, music fills the gap.
"Tell Me What You See" is not just another album to fade into the background of "noise."
It is a beacon, a life raft... and it is an interpreter.
It is for everyone who has ever been dissatisfied with their body, their looks, themselves...
And it is for their families and friends who don't know how to love them.

I ask you to consider this a precious investment... for yourself, your daughter, your wife, your girlfriend... or for that father, brother or husband who doesn't know what else to do.

Eating disorders are hard.
They require divine intervention.
"Tell Me What You See" provides the hammer, the chisel... whatever tool is necessary so that imprisoned woman can begin to break out of her prison.
And those that love her can begin to break through.

As one who is healing... and one who has been so broken... I beg you to consider this as a gateway to recovery, to health... to freedom.

Freedom is in Christ.
"Tell Me What You See" paints images of Christ and the desires He has for our lives... and it translates it for those who can do nothing more right now than listen.

Buy the album... share it...
And in doing so... share the truth that Christ created us, loves us, wants us and desires us to be whole, free and well.

If you have doubts... think of the statement - "Lord, Tell Me What You See..."
He sees beauty.
Allow yourself or those you love to see it too.

"Wow! Tell Me What You See will be a great source of inspiration to young women. It gives one a sense of the struggle and puts you in touch with the need. I love the testimonies. A moving, excellent production. Highly recommended."
Dr. Linda Mintle - Author of Breaking Free from Anorexia and Bulimia, Chesapeake, VA
"We have been treating eating disorders for 23 years..."Tell me what you See" is so encouraging and such a Blessing to our clients that it plays in our lobby and we use it in some of our groups. It was our staff's idea that we provide a copy to each of our eating disorder clients. It is a powerful healing touch!"
Dr. Gregory Jantz - Author of Hope, Help, & Healing for Eating Disorders
Director of The Center for Healing, Edmonds, Washington
"In the midst of boxes and packing [for Remuda], I listened to the CD tonight. How sovereign is God in his timing? The messages of hope...of understanding...of restating the exact place I'm in....yes, He knows where I'm at."
Sarah - struggling with anorexia
"Having the honor to lead Lily7 and to address college students at various campuses across our nation, I consistently encounter women who are imprisoned by their struggles with eating disorders. It seems that women everywhere have either struggled themselves or know someone who has. Knowing this, I found myself spellbound as I listened to the Tell Me What You See project. If you are connected in any way to women's ministry or to women who find themselves dealing with eating disorders, you must get this CD! There is healing and freedom in the music and words found here. Powerful!"
Nikki Rutz - President of Lily7.com
"Tell Me What You See is purely holy ground. It feels like entering a sacred place of conversation between a girl in excruciating pain and a tender Great Physician Father God. God has by-passed the mundane traditional educational circuit and transplanted HIS gentle heart into the soul of this ministry."
Dr. Doris Sanford - Author of No Longer Afraid
"Fiercely courageous and deeply inspiring, Tell Me What You See delivers a powerful message to all listeners about eating disorders. The music and testimonies reach the deepest part of one's soul while speaking the hard truth about the insidious illness. In our image-obsessed culture, I highly recommend this CD to not only those personally touched by eating disorders --- but to everyone."
Jenni Schaefer - Author of Life Without Ed: How One Woman Declared Independence
from Her Eating Disorder and How You Can Too
While Tell Me What You See delivers great music, it is quite the opposite of 'safe.' As with all of Music for the Soul's recordings, this record takes risks. Big ones. Which is why I believe it will play such a big role in helping change the lives of those who listen.

Serious issues like eating disorders deserve serious and intentional dialogue. With creative beauty and bold transparency, Tell Me What You See opens the door to such dialogue, and to the hope, help and healing that awaits all who seek freedom from this difficult struggle."
Constance Rhodes - President, Finding Balance
Author of Life inside the Thin Cage Franklin, TN
"On first hearing the CD, I was moved to tears by the beautiful music and the uplifting messages. It deeply resonated with my own personal experience. This will be a wonderful tool for helping people who suffer from this debilitating affliction. Thank you, Music for the Soul, for creating such an inspiring CD."
Peggy Napier - Nashville ,TN
"This project is so powerful. I just am so moved by it. I love the honesty of both the interviews and the songs. I know I'm going to listen to it again and again."
Sue Smith, Director - Write About Jesus, St. Louis, MO
"I wish my family could have listened to this CD while I was going through anorexia. It would have given us a place to start in conversation and would have given me words for the things I couldn't bear to speak myself about my addictions and control issues, and how they could help me."
Allie Lapointe - recovered anorexic, Florissant, MO
"As a small group leader for women in recovery for varying issues, I have found the music and testimonies on "Tell Me What You See" to be an excellent resource to inform me of the feelings associated with eating disorders and to help give a voice to those caught up in the bondage of obsession with their body image. Even with close friends who shared their struggles and resulting health issues, I did not understand the pain and anxiety of these women until I listened to the words on the CD of those who have believed the lies and paid the cost to become "beautiful"."
Nancy Kline - Celebrate Recovery Training Coach,
Fellowship Bible Church, Little Rock AR

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Tell Me What You See
CD Contents
1. Control
2. The Cost
3. Lies
4. Beautiful Jesus
5. Isolation
6. Swept Away
7. Something Not So Good
8. Tell Me What You See
9. Present
10. To Be Free
11. Cry Up
12. Time for a Breakdown
13. Hard
14. Piece Me Together
15. You Are Enough
16. You Love Me
17. In This Place
18. In the Image of God
19. Making Peace with Imperfection
20. Just the Way that I Am
21. All the Difference
(Allie Lapointe & Sara Beth Geoghegan)
© 2007 Paper Princess Music
/ Story City Music BMI
Tell Me What You See
Music & Lyrics by Allie Lapointe
& Sara Beth Geoghegan

Take away the curves, the waves
The softness of my form
Straight lines, stick figure
is what I'm going for
Just a little smaller
And then a little smaller still
I chase the moving target
Running uphill
Lord I'm fading fast
All I can do is ask...

Will you draw my portrait
And tell me what you see
Will you shine your light of truth
On the real me
I can't see fact from fiction
And I long for clarity
So tell me what You see
Tell me what You see

You say I am your masterpiece
Your artwork, your design
Yet I've questioned every brush stroke
And altered all the lines
With every gain and every loss
My vision blurs with tears
Until I can't see anything
Past the stranger in the mirror
I don't recognize myself
I'm desperate for your help, so...

Will you draw my portrait
And tell me what you see
Will you shine your light of truth
On the real me
I can't see fact from fiction
And I long for clarity
So tell me what You see
Tell me what You see

 ADDITIONAL LYRICS - for additional lyrics
from this CD see the lyrics page.

More Music Samples:
Beautiful Jesus
Swept Away
To Be Free
Time for a Breakdown
You Love Me
In the Image of God
Just the Way that I Am

Finding Balance Dr. Linda Mintle
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